Well… here I am. Back to the blogosphere.
I’ve made some attempts in the past with subject matter that has fallen on either deaf ears, or just by the wayside. So, I am really hoping that this one becomes productive.
An introduction to me, is that I am a work at home mom with 4 kids – my oldest having left the nest earlier this year. My other children are in elementary and middle school, so my life is full. I have a wonderful, tolerant husband that is a great father and friend. When you add a 40+ hour work week to my already rich life, and one that resides in the same four walls that me and my family do, things can get muddy. I’m grateful for the opportunity to work and earn while at home, but the work that I do is far from pleasant. This is no one’s fault, it’s the nature of what I do – it just doesn’t always pair well with the rest of my life. As a result, I am constantly doing 2 things at once, and sometimes more. I’m realizing that this is a destructive pattern that leads to destructive habits.
When I was younger, I’d buy a nice hard covered journal and write nonsense in it. I’ve gone through quite a few of these in my 40 plus years. Within the last month, I’ve written more in my journal than I have in a decade. Something happened that made me want to take this drivel and format it in a way that will help me figure out exactly what it is my mind is trying to do (and serve as cheap therapy). I like journals, because they serve as a repository for the ADHD that kidnaps my mind on occasion. The journals allow my mind to just spit out whatever is occupying it without limits or boundaries. When I read back through what I have scribbled, sometimes I get sad trying to remember what made me feel so lost and defeated. It’s hard to see a disheveled image of yourself, but you have to start somewhere…I’m starting here and now.
Insane Multitasker 